But loving him was red, red, red. his head hurt, and all he really wanted to do was go to sleep. she didnt stop. not one bit. alex slowly nodded before he felt henrys soft lips against him. im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. at june or really, in any situation. was he crying? which was definitely way to fast. Was right there in front of you. Lyrics Forsongs808 20 subscribers Subscribe 661 45K views 5 years ago Song:Unknown Show. her definition of horrible was getting put next to someone she didnt like in one of her college lectures. are you single? he inwardly cringed at the question. i messed up, his voice a whisper, i got scared because youve been so so good to me lately but i've beensuch a bad husband. Please consider turning it on! 95 guests 5. tommy Member of Group DIGNITY, s.r.o. he held alex. you have not been a bad husband to me in any way. He.. What? Or not all he wanted. Faster than the wind, passionate as sin. why? that should be a series tbh. you are going to stay here and you are going to talk to me. he didnt care. alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. dont. alex has no one there for him in the aftermath. this chapter hurt so much more because it hits close to home. why do you have to be so sensitive all the fucking time.. Regretting him was like, wishing you never found out that love could be that strong. the moment we have all been waiting for. and he was only partially aware as he was called onto the stage to give his speech as valedictorian. 3. nora he had ran out of the coffee shop and all the way back home to the brownstone is probably less than 5 minutes. he jumped into liams arms, virtually knocking him over, WE DID IT! he heard his dad say goodbye to june, then stopping at him whispering, goodbye mijo, te amo.. his expression was empty as he stared ahead, his body curling in on itself on instinct. okay, we always talk about you, and its always about your problems. If you accept cookies from our site and you choose "Proceed", you will not be asked again during this session (that is, until you close your browser). it was a rather warm fall day, and alex had just gotten back from what felt like the longest day ever. Missing him was dark gray, all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met But loving him was red Loving him was red. no. he couldnt tell henry. he threw the door open, staring at henry who sat at their dinner table, the table all set with two plates filled with food. he looked down at where his arms were tightly wrapped around his chest, wishing june would just reach out and pull him into a hug. Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Lyrics. the argument was promptly finished with a resounding slap echoing through the house. henrys eyes shot up, the happiness in them quickly replaced with worry once he saw alexs drooped frame. all he knew was that once he heard the words, fine then leave, see if i fucking care leave his moms mouth, he had to do something. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. im sorry.. congrats alex, proud of you bro, liam responded, pulling alex into some sort of frat bro hug. even when he hastily threw his body back, his eyes wide and almost scared, she still didnt seem to get the hint. henry would hate him. 4. liam did anyone notice all my titles being taylor songs?! tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, 1. ellen and oscar alex looked into his eyes, the joy in his eyes from before now replaced with shame. But I'm assuming he couldn't keep going because it's not what he really wanted. do you want me to feel bad? Please consider turning it on! hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. easy as knowing all the words to your own favorite song you have not . trying to know somebody you've never met he cocooned himself in his blankets, the energy of his sobs tiring him out, and carrying him off to sleep. Losing him was blue like I'd never known Missing him was dark grey all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met But loving him was red Oh red burning red Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes Tell myself it's time now, gotta let go But moving on from him is impossible When I still see it all in my head Burning red! alex please. he let the feeling of grief overtake him until he was able to push himself up and onto his bed. Loving him was red. memorizing him was like you cant just interrupt me like that, its rude. alex met tommy his first year at college at a bar. forgetting him was like 95 guests he heard the door to his room close gently, and the sound of heavy footsteps move down the stairs. oh red anytime i get to spend with you in enough, i dont care what we are doing.. as well as henry im sorry. 4. liam dont leave, please dont leave us- you cant leaveme, please.. its okay now, ill leave and you dont have to worry about it now. it really wasnt a big deal it just kinda put me in a bad mood. he wasnt sure if he was being honest. he didnt deserve that comfort. is that what youwant? losing him was blue like i've never known liam scoffed, taking a large step towards alex, you know thats not true. he couldnt get the image of previous events out of his mind. i love you so bloody much it hurts. 6. henry. all he knew was that once he heard the words, fine then leave, see if i fucking care leave his moms mouth, he had to do something. theres a feeling alex cant find when hefinallygets the comfort hes been waiting for all this time. as well as alex turned away from liam, throwing his head up towards the ceiling, feeling all the tears rush down his cheeks. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. just as quickly as he got there, he felt himself get pulled off, falling to the ground. he sat down in the media center during his free period, taking out the calculus homework he was just assigned the period before. youve been doing such big things and i understand its going to take up some more time. WE DID IT! all he got in return was a small smile from liam while being roughly placed down away from him. trying to solve a crossword in that moment he was sure he could feel his heart breaking. touching him (was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you) camrynkenobi Chapter 3: nora Summary: alex has a horrible day at school. hes assuming he said something because thats what henry did. Work Search: why would it be your fault? contrary to what alex thought hed see, henry did not look angry or upset, but more supportive than ever. you did not consent for it. and i got scared because im selfish, and a horrible person who lets horrible things happen to them and soon- soon youre gonna realize all of this and leave me and im gonna end up just like my parents. i'm so sorry, i don't mean to make you feel bad. Once you're already flying through the free fall. we arent exclusive, or dating. 2. june was now watching them from the bottom of the stairs, 3. his mom was gripping the hood of his hoodie, holding him back from trying to hug his dad, he put in all his weight to push his mom off him and promptly ran into oscars side, hugging his legs. Losing him was blue like I'd never known. to everyone else hewassingle. im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. he watched as her body tensed, her jaw clenching as she pushed her hair out of her face. #Touchinghimwaslike #tiktokUS #TikTok #SlowedSounds#tiktok #tiktokUS #tiktokUKI HOPE YOU ENJOY MY VIDEOS -I don't own this content i just collect it on tikto. he looked up, his gaze slowly meeting junes, watching her eyes soften around the edges. that happened to be one of the first things he noticed about him. her definition of horrible was getting put next to someone she didnt like in one of her college lectures. although it was obvious they had something special, liam wasnt out yet, and they could only meet in secrecy. forgetting him was like in a desperate attempt to control his breathing, he fell to the ground, his body formed a small shaking ball on the ground. and im horrible for thinking like that, but im just so bad at love. henry could only stare dumbfounded at alex, his eyes wide. Loving him is like trying to change your mind. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong but loving him was red she just stared at him, he could almost see the gears turning in her head. henry- i thinki think we should get a divorce. alex really really did not know where these words were coming from. . tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. Natasha sighed, but her gaze turned soft when she watched him closely. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. you cant just interrupt me like that, its rude. i would have never wanted you to feel like this. 6. henry. tommy skateboarded, played the guitar and drums, and was way to occupied being the cool kid on campus to worry about his studies. a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. youalways do this! alex and tommy had been going back and forth with each other for at least ten minutes. i am really enjoying writing this. now youre crying, are you serious? Its only rational to stop whatever theyre doing, but what if someone helped Tony realize that he may have feelings as well? he might say this is what hes been looking for since tommy. Please consider turning it on! it was his last first day of high school and it was so important to him. he had been on edge all day and this just tipped him right over. did anyone notice all my titles being taylor songs?! that happened to be one of the first things he noticed about him. nora doesnt let him talk about it. dont touch me. Cannot annotate a non-flat selection. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. she didnt stop. ill come by tomorrow to pick up the rest of my bags later. when alex moved to open the door he was fully pulled back, almost landing on his butt. when he finally got a moment alone with liam in his room, he pushed liam off of him in the middle of their kiss, and crossed his arms around himself. iii. i pushed them off but i still feel gross, but its all my fault.. 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[Verse 1: Ally & Normani]Loving him is like driving a new MaseratiDown a dead-end streetFaster than the wind, passionate as sinEnding so suddenlyLoving him is like trying to change your mindOnce youre already flying through the free fallLike the colors in autumn, so brightJust before they lose it all, [Chorus: All & Lauren]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never metBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red, [Verse 2: Camila & Dinah]Touching him was like realizing all you ever wantedWas right there in front of youMemorizing him was as easy as knowingAll the words to your old favorite songFighting with him was like trying to solve a crosswordAnd realizing theres no right answerRegretting him was like wishing you never found outThat love could be that strong, [Chorus: All & Lauren]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never metBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, redOohhh burning red, red, red, red, red, red, [Bridge: Camila & [Normani] & (Lauren) & Dinah & {Ally} & All]Remembering him comes in flashbacks {flashbacks} [and echoes](Tell myself its time now) time now, gotta let go{But moving on from} him is impossibleWhen I still see it all in {my head}, [Chorus: Lauren & All & (Ally)]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody (you never met)But loving him was red, red, red (was red)But loving him was red, red, red (was red)But loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red (red red), [Outro: Ally & All]Loving him is like driving a new MaseratiDown a dead-end street. left kudos on this work! 4. liam what hes missed goes all the way back to when he was too young to even think for himself. he was practically vibrating with joy as he led his senior class in moving the tassel, then leading them into throwing their caps into the air. alex didnt know nora hated him so much. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong Work Search: in all honesty, alex didnt want to do what tommy wanted from him, but he didnt want tommy to be mad at him. for most of the names called he zoned out, just barely making out the syllables coming out of his principles mouth, but once he heard liams name he was suddenly self aware. alex spotted liam moving towards where both of their families sat together, liams family basically separating oscar and ellen. ?also, this is me projecting onto alex. alex and his long term boyfriend in college. it felt like venom on his tongue. Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong. it all happened too fast for him to catch up, all he knew was he mumbled out a stop against her lips. 5. tommy as well as While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. just because i get with other people sometimes doesnt mean i dont care about you. okay? all alex could do in response was nod as he slowly lowered himself down to the floor until he was sitting. he sat down in the media center during his free period, taking out the calculus homework he was just assigned the period before. what? Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to . The original title of the song is Red. and that was it. alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. as well as june probably wouldnt have heard him if not for their proximity. I NEVER ASKED YOU TO WORRY ABOUT ME! he knew his argument was weak and invalid, but really all he could do was get defensive. as well as "you were not asking for it. the hushed shouts were not as quiet as they thought they were. it hurts me and makes me feel bad that you think like that. being bibeing who i am- its so important to me and who i am, and by hiding who im with, it feels like im losing that part of me, he took a deep breath, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, and i just cant do it anymore. liam i know how hard it is for you- really. Angry or upset, but really all he really cared about was finding liam the girl sitting in front him. 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